Oct 10, 2006, 07:51 AM
Fear of Poverty by Laura Moncur
"You are going to let the fear of poverty govern your life and your reward will be that you will eat, but you will not live" - George Bernard Shaw
“You will eat, but you will not live.” That phrase has haunted me since I first typed this quotation into the database years ago. How do I feed both parts of my psyche? I need to make sure that I make enough money to survive, but that survival can’t come at the expense of my soul.
There have been so many jobs that I took over the years that fed my stomach, but not my heart. I was really good at mixing solutions, processing claims and typing letters, but I didn’t really ever enjoy it the way I enjoy writing. I was always a hard worker, but I never felt passion in those jobs.
If you are in a job that is sucking out your soul through your pores every day, make an escape plan. What did you want to be when you grew up? I never wanted to count pills when I was a kid. I wanted to be a writer or an archaeologist. Archaeology could have been a fulfilling career for me, but writing is so easy to do in the comfort of my air-conditioned home. No dust. No muss.
Don’t quit your job. You still need to eat. You can feed your soul in your free time. Set aside time every week to do what you always wanted to do with your life, no matter what it is. It might be that the eight-year old that you were was wrong. Maybe owning a vineyard isn’t as fun as you thought it would be. In that case, you are free to set that old goal free in your mind and pursue other dreams.
Let your 8-5 job feed your stomach and pursue your dreams every week. Guard that time just as fiercely as you would your full time job. Don’t ever call in sick on your dreams. If you give enough time to follow your dreams, something will happen.
Maybe you’ll find out that you hate your dream. Then you can set it free.
Maybe you’ll make so much money from your dream that you can quit your full time job. Then you’ll have a whole new set of barriers in your way.
Maybe it will be enough. Maybe you will return to work every day refreshed from your dreamwork and maybe that good attitude will actually help you be a better worker at your 8-5 job.
No matter what happens, remember. You need to eat, but you also need to live.