Dear dye A Ry ,

[lieu13ac]

I am sooo lost in my thinking. Sometime I can't even tell between right and wrong. I feel some people are soo silly to have such a strong believe in their way of thinking and force other people to believe in what they believe in. Why can't we just mind our own business and let other people ALONE. Why be a busy body and stick your head into someone else's business.

Sitting in the cateria one day, there's this guy who walk up to me and pass along the word of God. I don't really mind but this guy keep on forcing me to believe what he believe in and it's kind of pissing me off. I respect what he believe but he kept on forcing me to believe in what he believe. BUt look at it the other way, he's just passing on what he think is good for all. Like sharing candies since you got soo much.

To me there isn't really a difference between what is RIGHT and WRONG. Right can be wrong, and the other way around. Nothing is definitely %100 perfect. If there is, there won't be lawyer to figure out the loophole of law. I think I am a very sane guy but someone may think that I'm CRAZY. What is normal? What is not? OMG I'm CRAZZZZY. I told myself just go with the flow sometime.

In a logic class one day I just had this crazy thinking. What the professor said is soooo great, sooooooooo reasonable, like whaooo he's amazing. But then I have this thought in mine, I look at him... hmmm thought to myself. What is the purpose of logic? WHy do we need logic in such an insane world? Crazy thoughts just fight inside my mind. If I raise my hand and ask him those questions of course he would be able to explain it but I know I won't take that in mind anyways. Why botherrrr.

The way people think is very hard to change. No one can change the way one's thinking, except themselves. It is like a FEAR. It is very hard to tell a person who's afraid of heights to overcome it.... it takes time.

There are always two sides to everything. Which means everything I'm saying right now like nonsense!!! Nothing is definitely. Everyone has his/her way of thinking.

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa I'm like soooo lost in space.

Words are easy to say but hard to take action sometime. Only that person in that situation understands. Others just thought that they understand but they DON't.

There are lots of thing that we can not explain. Someday I feel very irritated and lose my temper on friends for no reason. Or when I'm really tired I lose my temper. I feel like this world is messing around with our thinking. It's just like a cause and an effect. It's soooooooooooooo hard to explain but this is just insane. :-?:-?

[lieu13ac]

Oh my gosh!! sis Imsofa, how have you been? Lb misses you alot! hic hic hic thoi khong type nua>:D<....tears covering up my visions,

[lieu13ac]

I'm very sad today. Very Very saddd. I feel like losing a good friend. People are raised differently. WHo knows what they have in mind. Some people are very open, and some people are just narrow minded. And there are some just stay in between. Some people are very modest, some people like to brag. It just a everyday thing to them. Some people are very open in sex and some are very tradition. I kiss my ex girlfriend once on the first date and it went out kool. But if I kiss this very traditional girl on the first date, I would get slap like a sorry guy. Which one is right? I dunno. Some people may think this is funny but some people may think it's rude or feel offended.

I am a guy that doesn't really know how to interact with others. When I go out with friends who cuss, I go with the flow and do the same. When I go out with elderly people I give much respect. I remember long ago when I slip out a cussing word in front of my elder sister, I got a slap in the face really hard. I just take the slap as a lesson and learn from it.

Sometime in life you can't be too stiff, if you are you go nowhere. A soft lie is better than a cruel truth. If I see a bestfriend cheating on his girlfriend I'm not going to walk up to his girlfriend and tell her. That would turn into a mess. Or when I break up with my girlfriend, in such a chaotic situation I'm not going to stand there and keep on explain why I break up... I just walk away and let her calm down.

I was raised by strict parents who always pressing on to be totally honest in life. But when I grow older I start to change. WHen I was in high school, i'm stiff as a piece of wood. Never know how to lie, I was like foolishly dumb. One day in class, my classmate erase the whole class lesson from the board. The teacher was soo pissed and kept on asking who did it. Nobody say anything. So the teacher just pick on the little asian guy from an all african-american school and ask who did it. I was foolishly silly and raise out my index finger to the girl who did it. I know that girl!! She was my friend.!!! ~X( I have learned a great lesson from that. There is not just a right or a wrong. Was doing that right or wrong? Back then I thought it was right, but now I think it's sooo wrong. I am a snitch! I feel very bad because I loses alot of friend after that occasion. BUt what had happen already happened, it is like a no turning back situation. I can't explain to her that it was what I think is right. She would be pissed off even more. So I just let time erase that. Losing alot of friends but learn a great lesson.

Well back to why I feel very very sad tonight. The situation is like the past experience. Some people have their limit to games and if I go pass that they get offended. Even if it's a careless mistake it is hard to explain. And plus I am a guy who rarely apologize to what I think is right. [-X So I just walked away loses a good friend but gain another experience. It is not a good trade off, but I think it is fair enough.

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I was sitting silently in my house today. My sister and bro-in-law went to visit. They are all in there 30s now but still act soo silly. I overheard their conversation it went like this:

If your sister and I both fell in the water at the same time, who would you save first?

I was just burst out laughing. This is the silliest question ever. lmao. hehehehehe But my bro-in-law just stay silent. hahaha silly kidsssss hehehehe

well, the answer is not who would you rescue first, but who is easilier to rescue and depends on the situation. WHo know what we would do in such situation, I wouldn't even want to think about it. [-(

Don't keep things in mind for too long. Everyone makes mistakes. SLeep and wake up with a new begin. ^:)^^:)^